My Last Bulgarian Day

It's funny how right when I decide to write this entry, the song "I Feel Good" starts... Yes, I do feel good, and excited, and ready for the next step in my life. It's 3 a.m. now and I'm currently sleepless. I guess I'm too excited :) I've packed all my bags, said goodbye to almost everyone (sorry to the guys I never got to say 'bye' to .. :( ), and can't wait to take on my University experience.

Right now, I don't feel like I'll be homesick or nostalgic... Part of the reason for this is that most of my friends already left Bulgaria, so there wasn't anything too much left to keep me here... Sure, there's my family, but it's natural for kids to leave their families, so I'm not too worried about that. We'll all keep in touch, that's for sure. I only hope when I come back I'll still have a doggy... I hope he'll be ok for at least 4 more months... Ok, another song that kinda reflects my mixed feelings: "I'll Be Watching You." I have the habit of crying when I hear certain songs, and this is one of them... Maybe typing and crying don't go together (hopefully).

Today was a really tough day for Mom. She's very emotional, and the idea of me leaving her makes her very sad. She brought a new, literal meaning to the phrase "every breath you take, every move you make, every step you take, I'll be watching you." Literally, she spent the entire day with me. She even asked me to sleep in the same bed with her in the afternoon (and it was a single bed, so we were kinda squished, but at least she was happy). She cried a couple of times and made me sad as well. I feel bad for her, yet there's nothing I can do at this point. I'm sure she'll get used to the situation, but tomorrow will be an even worse day for her.

I'm feeling way too overwhelmed by the pleasant anxiety before the trip in order to sulk up in tears. I want to meet new people, see my new campus and London! Hey, and really, really soon this blog will actually live to serve it's original purpose! It'll be my London blog. Ah, can't wait!

In about 11 hours, I'll leave Bulgaria. Wow, I still can't believe that day finally came. The combination between no sleep, a dead brain, and the looking forward to tomorrow may make/has already made this entry slightly more meaningless than you'd hoped for. I'm listening to a compilation called "The 500 Greatest Songs of All Times," which is of course full of old, sad songs which make my throat twist into a knot. I don't think I'll cry, though.

When I leave BG, I'll leave many memories behind, but I'll never forget everyone who made my life so far amazing and unforgettable... Thanks to all you guys, you know who you are. I won't mention the names of certain people who made my life miserable, for 1. I'll probably never see them again, and 2. They don't deserve my attention at all... But as for the good people, they were more, thankfully. With some I spent years, with others - a mere few days, but thank you all. If you're reading this blog, you're most likely one of the good guys ;) (unless you're just a random guy looking through people's blogs, in which case sorry, but you're not an official member of my "Special People" group). Of course the greatest thanks goes to my closest friends - Mihaela, Katya, Milena, Ilianka, Vessi, Victor - and world peace! See you "live" around Christmas! Until then, long live webcams and messengers.

Ok, I guess I'll quit now cause for some reason I suddenly felt sleepy. I'm going to cuddle up next to Rex and get 6 hours of sleep before I wake up tomorrow to make the final preparations for London. Hopefully 20 hours from now I'll post my first London entry! Yaaaay!

Be happy, ya'll! See you... on the other side! ("Great Balls of Fire"'s on now) And 3, 2, ..1, whooosh! G'nite!